Hello Cyndi my name is Pete(31) and I’m hoping you can give me a helping hand. First off let me give you a quick overview of my situation. Seven years ago I got into a tremendous accident which left me a quadriplegic and unable to talk ” the doctor said I was going to be a veggie for the rest of my life and suggested to my family that I be institutionalized in a nursing home”. The first two-three years of recovery was a write-off “I was comatose”, I spent four long years in a long-term rehab hospital regaining my faculties and eventually I got to the point where it was time for me to move back home and I did “BOOYA I beat the odds, thanks for the advice doc”.
Ok enough about the past, I could probably write a whole book about that. Back to the present, I’ve returned home with my parents three years ago and my recovery process is still on-going (still need a wheel-chair and my speech is a little impaired but everything is getting better and better). So the reason why I am writing you today is I’m having trouble getting my life “back”. See over the years I’ve awoken to a world I have never seen before ie. I am no longer attracted nor care for worldly interest and materialistic matters, I see a world full of wonders and mysteries, awaiting for us to wake up and take/realize our true power/nature.
The “problem” I’m having is I do not know how to get my mundane-life back on the road, I lost all my material wealth and I always worked in the restaurant business “can’t do that any longer nor would I want too” so what I’m trying to say is how do I figure out what to do (being in wheel-chair with a speech impedement)? I’ve tried going with what I think my heart is telling me but I keep having doubts eg. my speech, physical condition, experience etc. I feel I am to be a sort of counselor and I know I want to be a service to others I just need some direction, can you help point the way?
I appreciate you very much for all that you do for the world, your awesome.
Your grateful subscriber, Pete K.
You want your mundane life back? Really? Why? Are you sure?
Now that we have gotten that out of the way – my next question is…
“What do you really want?”
Sounds like in your heart you know the answer to that question – or at least you are getting tastes of it when you quiet the doubts for a moment or two. Allow yourself sink into those moments – what does it feel like when you imagine being of service to others in the way you describe? Let yourself enjoy this feeling – and then allow your actions to come from that place of enjoyment.
How wonderful is it to just be able to breath on your own – and to be conscious of the delicious taste of the breath?
Are you still connecting and seeing the wonders all around us? So many of us are so lost in the “mundane” that we have apparently lost the ability to see in the way that you describe…
Your story moves me and inspires me in a way that I feel in the center of my being. It stirs something inside – it tickles that place that remembers what I am – that rejoices in the experience of being. I expect that it is doing the same for many of those that are now reading it here (and if that is the case – please share in the “Leave a Response” section below the post)
I think you are awesome
As I sit with your story and your questions I want to tell you to see those doubts through the eyes and heart of a man who already far exceeded any and all expectations. Sit with each one of them as they come up and ask yourself…
“Is this really true? Is what these thoughts are telling me really true? What else may be true?”
And then commit to taking one small action each day towards your dream.
Sharing your story here is one of those steps – and I sense that writing may be a very powerful way for you to continue to inspire and share your story – so I want to tell you to keep writing – write your story, write about your motivation to keep working even after the doctors gave you no hope, write about the wonders that you are experiencing – about the joy of just being.
Write, question the doubts, and pay attention to that which inspires you….
It will, one breath at a time, lead the way
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