Several years ago I was doing a goodbye exercise.see the tree of life,butterfly comes out of a cocoon and the white light behind,feel the warmth and love etc..Anyways,i was doin that and i remember thinking hey i`m really liking this,and then it happened,i was swallowed by it,i was nothing in nothing and yet i was aware,and such a sense of overwhelming love and freedom,and then i was back in my body. Do you know of others who have had such an experience? I’d really like to be in that place some days,my life has been pretty hellish and yet freeer since then.Appreciate any info you could share.
After the events of 911 I fell apart for awhile. Every truck backfiring was a bomb going off, every stranger a terrorist looking to kill my children. The world had become unsafe and I couldn’t stop my heart from racing.
All I could do was write. And write I did – almost non stop for 3 or 4 days. Every thought, every feeling – I wrote. I didn’t stay in the lines – didn’t try to compose real ideas or try to fix anything – I just essentially dumped everything that was going on in my head into those notebooks – until after about 4 days there was nothing left to write.
My mind had emptied
And I went into a light meditation – and across my vision screen walked a little boy. When he got to the center of the screen he stopped – turned towards me – smiled and waved.
And I knew that all was right with the world.
I knew that nothing could ever hurt that which I was – I saw through the illusion which is the 3 Dimensional world and I began to walk through my days with a sense of love and peace in my heart that couldn’t be touched by the chaos that was taking place around me.
This feeling lasted for a little while – and then it began to fade – being replaced again with the stress of day to day living. And though the feeling faded – it’s memory did not – it has become my carrot – this knowing how things can be – and it keeps me going with the work I do on those days where life appears to be – in your words – “hellish”.
Many of us have been gifted with a taste of this feeling – though very rarely – at least in the beginning – does it last. I am not sure why – but we all do not just awaken like an Eckhart Tolle or Byron Katie. For most of us work is involved – and all the processes that I have mentioned in previous posts can help us clear the path that allows this knowingness to become a bigger and bigger part of our awareness.
It would be wonderful if everyone reading this post took a few minutes to share with us there experiences – Combined I sense – our stories can help of us move ever closer to that space where we know who we are – and rejoice.
One teacher who I haven’t mentioned before – but who I am reminded of by your question – is Richard Moss. He teaches a process called Radical Awareness that you may find really valuable as you continue this most amazing journey of ours. You can find his wok, and sign up for his 5 part free ecourse, by visiting…
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