I do so love your answers and your column has become a favorite read for me. So when this questions kept on popping up I thought I should definitely ask for your take on it .
I consider myself fairly balanced and usually level headed and happy. I’m not afraid to ask the questions (to myself) and explore where I can improve/let go/find further balance. I just don’t seem to get this right when the kids come around. But let me give you some background first.
I’m in a relationship with a man who has 2 kids, aged 7 and 11. I have no kids of my own (although we are trying ) We’ve been together for 3 years now and I get along fabulously with the kids (most of the time) and are also on speaking terms with the mother. So on the surface – no real issues.
Yet, I can’t help but notice how edgy I seem to become when they around. I love them, they sweet and my boyfriend also supports me in disciplining them. (Accept of course that I seem to be the only one that notices how his little girl has him wrapped around her little finger.)
I’m starting to find it disconcerting that everything seems to go smoothly until they visit for the weekend… When they are there my boyfriend and I seem to naturally fall into petty argument mode and generally neither of us seem to get it together unless we make a *real big effort* – which we both thankfully do.
The thing is….the arguments are not about the kids or with the kids (initially anyway)- we just seem to be all out of sorts when they there. This makes me think that there is some underlying issue that I may be missing. (Maybe some old hurts that I haven’t dealt with yet?)
I know feeling out of sorts is an opportunity to heal….do you have any idea where I should be looking? I feel guilty that we always seem to be arguing when they around and my boyfriend must think I hate his kids which is really not the case – especially since I think all the arguments are his fault anyway .
Hope you’ll be able to shed some light.
I hope no offense will be taken when I let you know that your email created a big smile within me – and even a chuckle or two
Children – whether they are yours or someone elses certainly do give us the opportunity to find our buttons – don’t they? Children and parents – they are our greatest gifts when it comes to assessing just how awakened we are – and where we still have work to do.
So – before we go any further – I would like to invite you to share a smile with me and to take a moment and pat yourself on the back. It is obvious that you are doing a great job – and taking the time to feel really good about that – daily – will go a long way towards giving you the distance you need to really disassemble those lingering “buttons” that are showing up as uneasiness and petty disagreements in your space.
The specific causes of the buttons – I am not certain – and nor do I necessarily believe they matter. Learning why something is a problem is not nearly as important as opening up to living your Highest and Best life in this moment.
So I have a challenge for you – if your up to it
Instead of insights into the whys and “deep meanings” of this current situation- how about you take the next four weeks and see if you can’t just change the story into something that is much more powerful and enjoyable.
And why not consider doing it easily?
And here’s how….
1) At the end of each day take a few moments to smile, breath fully, and pat yourself on the back. Acknowledge to yourself that you did a great job that day – that who you are blessed at least one other – and that above all you did the best you could. Find at least 5 ways you made the world a better place and allow yourself to feel good about it.
2) At the beginning of the day take a moment to smile at yourself in the mirror and set your intention to flow joy that day. Dedicate yourself to having the best day ever – and to remain present and open to whatever the day brings.
Now – when you get triggered (ie when you feel an argument coming, or you feel a judgement of someone’s behavior showing up, or that “uneasiness” shows up in any form)….
a) label it – in your head – say something like – “hey look – there it is again”
b) take 3 full relaxing breaths and just notice it
c) ask yourself simply “would I rather hold on to this or would I rather be happy?”
Sometimes you won’t catch the argument before it occurs – and that’s OK. Once it’s over and you are aware again just….
a) smile and breath…
b) allow yourself to welcome any remaining “charge” surrounding the argument
c) ask yourself “would I rather be right or would I rather be happy?”
Do this for just 4 weeks. For four weeks consider making the decision to “be happy” regardless of how well that little girl works her father, or how much you would like your own children, or how much you think you want anything to be different then it is at the moment.
Just four weeks – and then come back and tell us about your experience
Loving the Journey
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