I’ve been reading your posts for some time now and to be honest they’ve helped me a lot. However there is still something I’m currently struggling with. It’s a feeling of unfulfillment, of emptiness, of missing something very important in my life.
I don’t know if it has something to do with the fact that I broke up with a person, whom I thought of as “my soulmate” and was deeply crushed afterwards. On a mental level I understand that we weren’t meant for each other but I still suffer over the loss of him. I think this sense of emptiness I feel has been growing since then.
Somewhere along that time I started binge-eating. And I can’t seem to let it go, to stop it. I’ve been to a psychologist, taken homeopathy, tried EFT, the Sedona method… but nothing seems to really work.
Could you help me in any way?
18 Days ago I watched a movie entitled “Sick, Fat, and Nearly Dead” on Netflix. A friend recommended it and I watched more because I said I would then because I really wanted to (it sounded depressing).
I was sucked into the movie quickly – as was my 13 year old daughter.
In essence a very unhealthy man made the decision to go on a 60 day juice fast and to take a camera crew with him as he juiced and traveled the United States talking to people about their relationship to food.
I got a huge “Ah hah” as I listened to people of all ages talk about how they knew that what they were doing was bad for their body but that they couldn’t or wouldn’t stop. I was completely amazed by a 50 something year old man who said (as he was eating liver and onions) that he knew he was heading for an early grave but at least he would die happy. He essentially said that Liver and Onions was more important to him then watching his children grow up.
It was at that moment I really recognized our (my) mental and emotional addiction to food.
Food is suppose to feed and nourish our physical body – no matter how much we believe otherwise – it was never designed to nourish us mentally, emotionally, or even spiritually. And our attempts (over generations) to give it that role has made us “Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead”.
As soon as the movie was over I made a decision and within 12 hours I began my own juice fast and today I am pleased to announce I am on day 17 of what I set out to be a 14-21 day experience. I did it not to lose weight (but I have ) or to improve my physical health (though I am – people are telling me my skin is glowing ) but to get a handle on my own unhealthy emotional and mental relationship with food.
And it is working – or at least at this point I am gaining clarity on what triggers my desire to eat and am finding other avenues. And, when those triggers hit, I am using the tools (Sedona Method, the Rose, and others I have written about) to systematically defuse them – one at a time.
And the triggers are weakening.
Binge eating will never satisfy the emptiness you are speaking about – and you know that. The emptiness you are experiencing is coming from a disconnect between the you walking around in physical form – and the Higher You – the one that recognizes and celebrates your connection to the all that is. And the Binge Eating is really doing nothing other then feeding that disconnect.
The most important “step” you can take is to make the decision that you have had enough. To decide that there is nothing more important then to rediscover yourself – and that you will take whatever steps to make that happen. Once that decision is made then the specific plan will fall in place – and perhaps – just perhaps – a Juice Fast (with a Doctors Guidance if you have any medical concerns) may be just the ticket you need to break the addiction that is/has kept so many of us from knowing who we really are.
Please keep in touch and let us know how things are going – and – if anyone wants to know more about my experience with the Juice Fast please ask your questions in the comment section below. I would also love to hear about others experiences – especially relating to this emotion/mental food addiction issue.
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